Thursday, July 02, 2009

Judgement Under Duress

How should one read? For pleasure? With attention? To appreciate? To escape? How should one think about one's reading? How should one respond to it? And when? And why did I take this hateful English class: it's driving me all over the walls and ceilings and the answers it gives to those questions haunt me like the ghosts of sins and the whispers of damnation. (Read and respond, read and critique, read and judge - yes yes yes, it encourages constructive thought but there is just something in the college method that depresses me.) I can't decide if it's The Great Gatsby that I dislike or the professor's method of teaching that novel and or if it school or what. I wish I wasn't so sensitive to disappointment and dissatisfaction!

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

A Creature of Study

So my public speaking class has drawn to a close. My last speech was a disaster, but I've recovered, xD Too much research, and not enough time to edit it all down!

I was flabbergasted by all the scholarly material I came across on the subject of fanfiction (which I took for the topic of my last speech). It is vaguely disorienting to discover my hobby and all-time love bandied about in academic circles as a subject of study - as though fanfiction were something to be pored over in a microscope by scholars in white coats.

O.o I can't decide if I'm disturbed by the prospect or not.

Listen to the Slumdog Millionaire soundtrack. It is good.

Monday, June 29, 2009

I - The Regime of Excessively Short Summer Reading

Chapter 1

Last Friday, I roared like a tornado (because cliches are awesome) through a sadly undefended local library and swept away a treasure trove of books. The books back home were not enough to sate the terrible hunger - I needed shorter volumes to fuel the Creature that is Summer Reading.

In a word, I'm getting nowhere in War and Peace, so I decided to take my summer reading in small steps.

I finish H. G. Wells's The Time Machine and C. S. Lewis's An Experiment in Critique yesterday, and I will talk about them, as well as my Regime, at length in chapter 2 and 3 of this Summer Reading Saga when I am not late for class.

:: flees ::

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Fandom Teaches Me a New Word

I'm currently (supposed to be) doing research for the fourth and final speech I'm giving this Thursday in my public speaking class. I would wonder at how odd it is that my research is proving as much a distraction as an education for me - but then again, I'm researching fanfiction. I am in my element. Of course I'm dashing all over the place, half-distracted and starry-eyed.

I still have no idea what I want to persuade my audience to believe (or disbelieve) about fanfiction. Should I concentrate on the topic of fair use? Trademark dilution? Fanfiction as a legitimate expression of personal creativity that should be celebrated? The fanfiction way is the right way? (... whatever that means) How the term "fanfiction" should never be applied to Twilight, however dreadful a series it may be? How fanfiction is a legitimate activity? (Wide Saragossa Sea was a success. Though it seems people generally don't like legal sequels of books - this is the impression I got, at least, from reading reviews of Sally Beauman's Rebecca's Tale - my favouritest fanfiction in the world, now, because Gerard Doyle was one of the readers on the audiobook. God smiled on me the day I discovered that, xD - at Goodreads.) Yuck. Coming up with a specific topic is an ugly chore. Why can't this be an informative speech? ;_;

But let me return to the title of this post! which I have sadly neglected it for the sake of digression (and by "digression", I mean this sentence. Distinctio, thank you very much, :3). In the midst of my research, I have stumbled upon a new word, and a whole new branch on the fanfiction/fandom community to fangirl over:

Aca/Fan -- ... a hybrid creature which is part fan and part academic.

The following blog illustrates the academic fan: Confessions of an Aca-Fan: The Official Weblog of Henry Jenkins (you know that description after the colon was necessary, xD)

And while I will be obliged to reacquaint myself with the dictionary while perusing the above blog (for we have been estranged, the dictionary and I: I have abandoned it, believing my vocabulary developed enough to afford me the luxury of desertion. Ah! But how I have been proved wrong), I can't wait to start reading the articles. When I am no bowed beneath the necessities of research.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Goodreads.com

Behold! To the right and down below, beneath the "Muchas Gracias": my latest summer reading list, with - most importantly - pictures. I made an account at Goodreads.com a day or so ago, and have been madly adding and rearranging shelves and shelves of books since. It's my new distraction, discovered at a time when I don't need distractions. I sometimes wonder about myself, xD

I rescued all but four documents from my old Mac yesterday. It was fierce battle; the floppy disks meant to perish before they gave up anything. But I triumphed.

Allow me to treat you to a selection of the salvaged writing! Link goes to Goodreads.com. Ignore the "0 people liked this writing" at the top. It hurts my feelings, xD

Monday, June 15, 2009

Team Work! =D

Group work is always an interesting part of college. Especially when you have to work with dogmatic classmates, x3

I still don't like groups much.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Summer Reading, Part I

We interrupt this program to bring you a crucial announcement:

It is possible to die laughing. Behold, a webcomic.

And now! back to the program.

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Well, despite glaring deficiencies, the libraries down here are not so feeble as I originally supposed. Several branches are offering an adult reading program. It's the first I've ever come across, in all my years of library haunting.

The object of the program is to win prizes based upon the number of books you read. The more books, the more chances. I like that incentive, 8D There's nothing more annoying than beginning three books a week, finishing - at most - two by the end of the month, and then returning all twelve books before I accumulate too many fines having read nothing.

Behold! therefore, my reading list, formed of the books currently on my shelf, which I mean to finish in a timely matter, that I may consume more:

Death of a Salesman by Arthur Miller
Required reading for school. But I've taken to our required texts with enthusiasm, and have learned to read them for pleasure! A rare triumph, I assure you - I used to be insulted by the word "required".

A Raisin in the Sun by Lorraine Hansberry
Previous required reading for school. I enjoyed the play, and would like to read it again. Let's ignore the fact I need to reacquaint myself with its details for the sake of the critical thinking questions I have neglected to answer and must answer if I want that grade, x3

The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald
More required reading! I was irritated when the English professor told the class we would be reading Gatsby. I am half sick of the book, for I have been required to read it each year since middle school. Are there no other brilliant books in this world that teachers can assign?! But ah well. I'm going to listen to it on my iPod. Yes, I feel so modern right now. My iPod is a change to the comfy little rock under which I've made my nest, x3

The Giver by Lois Lowry
I used to read this book once a week when I was younger, with religious adoration. I rediscovered Giver a day or two ago and that discovery bore with it all the old love I had for this book. I'm about to finish it, and mean to read it again. And again. And again. And again. And again. Did I mention "and again"?

Daniel Deronda by George Eliot
I've been wild to reread this for some time now. I first read it at a time when every paragraph that took up more than a page streamed illegibly before my eyes; now, advanced in age (and hopefully, in mental capacity!) I shall attend to each and every word, and discover what I previously missed!

Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov
... I do love this book. And I'm reading it again, x3 Listening to it, to be precise. I could die for Jeremy's Irons's voice. And Nabokov's humour! It is wonderful. The adulterous wife leaves him scene is beautiful. La, I've rarely laughed so hard. Lolita is a must.

This Side of Paradise by F. Scott Fitzgerald
I've attempted this book before, and so shall attempt it again. I may have wanted to smack Amory Blaine; that's probably why I didn't finish the novel before.

The Madwoman in the Attic by Sandra M. Gilbert and Susan Gubar
I've been reading this on and off since April. Or May. I no longer remember. I would like to finally finish it. Gilbert and Gubar's theory of the themes shared among 19th century female writers was perfectly fascinating. It filled my brain with story ideas. But now the authors have moved on to examples - finding lessons of independence and individuality among themes of madness, imprisonment, submission, etc. in Jane Eyre, Jane Austen's work, etc. - I have been less attentive. This need remedying.

A Room with a View by E. M. Forster
It's a short novel. And it's on my shelf. Why not read it?

The Brothers Karamazov by Fyodor Dostoevsky
I shall count it a triumph if I manage to finish a Russian novel this summer.

War and Peace by Leo Tolsoty
:: glances up at The Brothers Karamazov :: Ditto.

Literary Women: The Great Writers by Ellen Moers
It's about women. And writing! And so I must read it. It is very much in tune with Madwoman.

The Female Imagination by Patricia Meyer Spacks
This book was in the bibliography of Madwoman. Thus, it must be read. I'm starting to see a pattern, don't you think? It may have something to do with Femgenficathon 2009 over at LiveJournal. Psst! Scroll down through the quotes and note the usernames. You'll see a Selah Ex Animo. Commence to wonder who she may be, >_>

The Mysteries of Udolpho by Ann Radcliffe
I detest Radcliffe's obsession with scenery. But Mysteries is 18th century Gothic literature, and Gothic literature is my love. Mysteries will be read, even if I must set the book aside, now and again, to escape the sentimental heroine and the overabundance of scenery, and prevent myself from throwing the book at a wall. The heroine grates upon my nerves unspeakably; I could barely force myself through her father's death scene, where he gave a drawn-out speech lamenting the dangers of a hard heart. His silly daughter swooned every few paragraphs. And then the father would raise his voice in loud exclamation, and the servants would come running with salts, to raise the heroine upon some couch and revive her. ... I... really wanted to slap her. My hand itched for an opportunity.

A Writer's Diary by Virginia Woolf
Madwoman has revived my fascination with Virginia Woolf. I'm curious about her writing life, as curious as I am about her diaries and correspondence. I might read A Room of One's Own after this.

13 Ways of Looking at the Novel by Jane Smiley
It's a big book on writing. And its points are numbered. Tell me, how could I resist this?

Atlas Shrugged by Ayn Rand
I'm reading this for a scholarship essay contest I hope to enter in September. Atlas is a fascinating story; I adore Dagny Taggart, and the title just floors me every time I reflect on it. Atlas, who holds the world upon his shoulders, shrugged. The great people whose inventions are the foundation of our world, rebelled. And what happens to society? Ooh. I am beginning to see why people either hate or love Rand's philosophy, and why Atlas is called a black-and-white work, with too simplistic a view. But it's intriguing. Rand's looter characters are deliciously despicable.

Vanity Fair by William Thackery
Seriously. I am reading this novel for the title alone.

So there you have it! 18 books, and this not even half my writing list (I am just running late for class and have no further time to write, that's all). I shall have finished a page of my reading log if I read but 12 of these books. Wish me luck! I may return to this blog to keep progress of my reading; I meant to do that on another blog, but Something Phenomenal looked so sad and neglected. And besides, I'm starting to dislike splintering my identity between blogs. I shall be Selah wherever I go. Hmph >.>

But before I go, did you know that M. G. Lewis, author of the Gothic novel, The Monk, was only 19 when he wrote it?

... I shall now suppress the raging feelings of inadequacy that arise whenever I consider that I am 19 and have only poetry, pieces of stories, and a first draft novel to show for it, and go to class.

Though I will add that in conclusion, comics about Marth are always funny. Srsly.